leavin on a jet plane
you may have noticed that i have posted only frippery for a few days now.
this is because i have been engulfed in the blogosphere and the places to which it leads me, and it’s a little embarrassing how little else i have done with my last few days in Bloomington for 2005. i mean, i did get Some work done, i have some end-of-semester thoughts that i should probably post, i am (almost) packed for the plane tomorrow, and i spent some time with friends, so it’s not as bad as it could have been, but…
i’m still feeling a bit dazed
if you don’t know the story, i’m flying to orlando tomorrow to spend some time with the parts of my family that live there. these parts are grandmother (1), grandfather (1), step-grandmother (1), great aunt (1), aunt (1), uncle (2), uncle’s girlfriend (1), cousin (3), cousin’s small children whom i have never met (3).
i think that’s about it…
it should be nice really, so i’m a little ashamed to admit that i’m not really looking forward to it all that much. i’m sure it will make more sense when i’m there, but right now it feels kind of strange because i don’t quite know what it will be like, and so whenever i try to take a snapshot of my mood on the matter i just see some fuzzy blobs that i’m not really sure how to interpret. it Could be some QT with the fam-damily, but it could also be a series of stilted interactions strung together by phrases like “so! whatterya up to these days? infor… whatsit called again?” and peppered with feelings of guilt over being so disconnected and confusion about what should be done about it.
this uncertainty makes part of me wish for the much clearer picture of a few more days of relaxing and enjoying the end of the semester with friends in indiana, and then off to colorado for christmas. as it is, i have to pack for two trips instead of one (i’m going to colorado directly from florida), and i don’t really feel ready for either.
oh well.
i don’t know what the internet situation is going to be like in florida, but i’ll take notes, and be back before you probably even notice i’m gone
;)
now my laundry has stopped, so i’m going to finish that packing and head for bed.